Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Benicio and The Del Toros and... Us???

I did a little search on that great jazz(?) band that we enjoyed the other night. Remember, Benicio and The Del Toros? And I found this clip of them playing at Cafe Lalo on the New Year's Eve. And who were there at that time enjoying their awesome music?

We were!

Check this out:

Who's that in the center chatting our night away? LOL. Did you guys know they were filming this? I had my back towards the camera, so I had noooo idea. But this is funny. And weird.

And I wanna go there again, enjoy the tasty coffee liquor, and get in the mood with the rhythm once more.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Something I (don't) Live For

"To create a world where science and technology are celebrated... where young people dream of becoming science and technology heroes."

This is a quote from a website about a robotics competition I was looking up for one of my (required) volunteer opportunities for my work. (Yeah, really. A required volunteer. How fun.) When I read this line, I realized something. This is what people in this work place dream of; to be a hero in science and technology world. The problem is, I'm not really all that excited about technological and scientific stuff. More precisely, not anymore.

Thinking back, I used to be truly excited, fascinated and even flabbergasted by all things technology: computers, airplanes, spacecrafts, TVs, cell phones, new GPUs, huge HDDs, and so on. I used to look up online for newest gadgets, read an electronics' manual from cover to cover, or tell my not-so-tech-savvy family about what's hot out there, and why we need it.

But that enthusiasm started to fade away at some point. I started to get less excited by continuous stream of new tech stuff and get tired at being disappointed by them. I got tired of listening to fanboys railing about why something's so cool*. I started to feel empty even when I purchased a cool new toy, which I'd soon drop and look for something else. I think I started to see how things are in this side of the world; everything is bound to lose the "coolness," and so a better new thing must be developed. This is the fundamental driving force of technology; everything's got to be better, hotter, and cooler. (How you manage one thing to be cool and hot at the same time is beyond me.)

Ultimately, I realized that these things will never be able to satiate my thirst for the warmth and the comfort I eager all the time. What can satisfy me is that the people, not of the machine.

And that's what I want: human feelings. A moving story; a great work of art; a breath-taking photograph; something that makes me stop for a second and think. Something that moves every single cell in my body, and feel an emotion I cannot describe. A powerful message that can only be delivered by sound, or by image.

I want more than "cool." I want art. I am slowly realizing that I am in the wrong side of the world, and that's why as each day passes by, I get more tired and exhausted, less willing to get out of the bed each morning.

*This word, "cool," seems to dominate this world, as if it's like a word of truth, a word to live by, and die by. I'm really tired to hear something is so cool or that's not cool. There's plenty of other adjectives than "cool," you know.

Thursday, January 1, 2009

End of a Chapter, Beginning of Another

Year 2008.

Too short of a year it was. Driving to the same desk every morning, dragging myself out every evening. Days were long. Yet, time passed without my noticing. Nothing sort of big event to mark the calendar didn't help either. It did yield some remarkable achievements, though. But not because I deserve it, but because chances brought them myside.

Year 2009.

No way to know what surprises awaits in this year, but I know I can and must prepare myself for them. And in doing so, I will change. Just like I did in 2008. But I know it will be okay. Because I am not alone... :)