Monday, May 23, 2011


가장 힘들때..
누구한테 기대고 싶을때..

그럴 사람이 없다는게
그 사실이 제일 힘든것 같다.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

무너지지 않도록

그때까지 버틸수 있는 힘이 필요하다..

내 마음이 무너지지 않게

벽이 아닌

기둥을 세우는 지혜를


Thursday, May 12, 2011

Disgusting American Politics

I'm a bit reluctant to post somethings related to news or world events on this blog (I'm trying to keep it personal), but after reading articles like this, I can't but rant here.

The article shows what is wrong with "great" America--lobbying. When done right, sure it can make progress. But this article shows why Washington DC's business as usual is so disgusting: Meredith Attwell Baker, FCC commissioner who was a strong proponent of Comcast-NBC acquisition, quits her job and joins the newly formed company as a Washington DC lobbyist.

Are you disgusted yet? Well, you should be. This is like abuse of power for her own, selfish good, while paving a wide-open way to the demise of net neutrality, and to the f*cking cable-like internet.

It is my belief that telecommunication should be treated like utilities, with complete separation from content providers. It's like water and sewer system; they exist to deliver water to and from us. Or like USPS, that provide the most basic means of sending and receiving packages. They do not discriminate based on content of such goods. (Imagine USPS denying business with you because you used stationary from one company instead of another.) Internet, phone calls, and even cable TV should work like tubes that connect point A and B, and nothing more. It must not discriminate what's going in and out. It works against innovation, freedom, and deprives individuals of choice.

Comcast-NBC acquisition goes directly against that, and Attwell Baker's action disgust me. Comcast charging extra, or even blocking, any content coming from networks other than NBC became a natural thing for that company to take now.

I'm a subscriber to Comcast. I hate this company. It imposed monthly internet usage cap very secretively. If you are Comcast broadband subscriber and was surprised by this, I won't blame you. Comcast never told its subcribers of this important change. I just can't believe Comcast is the only viable ISP choice I have at my apartment.

Once again, nice going, America.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011


I look around at work, and I see a lot of those who see very comfortable where they are, even complacent. It seems to me that their value is centered around supporting their family, and staying in a stable job, with stable income.

I am not one of those. I want something different. I want inspiration. I don't want to work just for steady income. I don't want to work for the bragging right of working at a giant company. No, I want to work for something I believe in, because you are what you do.

This is something I (once again) realized after watching Simon Sinek's talk (embedded below) on those who leads. He explains that companies should have a value, a belief that drives their actions, and they should find employees who believes in what the companies believe. "If you hire people just because they can do the job, they'll work for your money. But if you hire people who believes what you believe, they'll work with their blood, sweat and tears." Conversely, this means employees should work for companies that they believe in, not just ones that can pay you.

This echos several others (as to prove my belief that truths always comes together). Daniel Pink said about today's motivation on TED that for any work that's a little bit more complex than rudimentary tasks, simple rewards does not work. Instead, their intrinsic motivations, such as autonomy, mastery, and satisfaction, drives people to excel. This is in line with Simon's message. People work not for money, but for their own belief.

In this blog, I've complained about how I'm miserable here at work, doing the work I don't want to do, just for the money. At those times, I simply complained that the tasks I'm doing weren't fun, weren't challenging, and I didn't find a reason to apply myself. But now I see that there's more to that: I don't believe in what this company believes in.

Actually, I didn't know what this company believed in. It wasn't communicated to me at all. "Never forget who we work for," this company's slogan always says. Now what does it mean? Who do we work for? Various companies from various parts of the world... So what does it mean by that? I simply don't know. A quick look at the website reveals a short statement for it's "Vision": "Powered By Innovation, Guided By Integrity, We Help Our Customers Achieve Their Most Challenging Goals." Again, it doesn't believe anything. Simply of delivering goods that its customers demand.

I want to work where I can contribute to advancement of the humanity, enrich its knowledge and art, or work to secure humanity's survival past the emptiness of space. Launching my career at a place as empty in meaning as void, and spending four years in that place is enough. I think it is time to take control of my life.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

This Very Moment

Have you ever had a moment in your life
where it was just too good to be true, yet, it was??

Yes, that.

And yeah, that is now.

Thank you :]