Saturday, December 27, 2008


제길-_- 쓰던거 다 날라갔다. ....걍 그렇다고.

Thursday, December 4, 2008


누구는 억울하게 홀로 생사를 오가는 외롭고 고된 나날을 보내는데
나는 풍족한 이곳에서 모든것이 다 있는 이 자리에서
사랑타령이나 하고 불만불평이나 늘어놓고 있고나.

아이고 내 어리석은 자신아.
언제서야 제대로 된 사람이 될꺼냐...

Love For The Sake Of Loving

"...[kids] want each other so much because they want each other so much. Sometimes that's all it's about, isn't it? They're in love with being in love."

- Roger Ebert, "Twilight " Review

Here's my question: is loving for the sake of the feeling of loving, and being loved, good, or bad?

I'm asking because it feels awful like acting blithly and irresponsiblly, something that belongs to a period what we call puberty, pretty much what that movie, "Twilight" is aimed at.

And I'm asking also because it seems like something I'm doing. Right at this moment.


Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Am I?

I heard people regarding girls as 'high-maintenance' or 'low-maintenance'.
I'm not sure if that applies to guys as well?

If so, I think I'd be considered 'high-maintenance'...

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Tricky, This Thing Called Money...

The recent financial crisis here in US is reminding me not only how valuable my job is, but also how terrible I am with money stuff. (I know economic crisis and my personal finance was a bit of a gap, but it does. So, shut up.)

Some of you may know but I was never a keeper. I mean money-wise, at least. Whatever I earn, I spend. This is bad. But sometimes, I spend more than I earn. This is terrible. To keep track of where my money is going, I started recording all my spendings and earnings, and guess what? I still have no idea where it's going. I just see that big red number at the end of each month, indicating I've spent more than what I've earned that month. But that doesn't mean much, because I think to myself, 'Oh, well, I can work OT and make up for it.'

Yeah, right. Like I ever work nearly enough to cover my expenses. (I'm usually to busy spending my money away, or enjoy the goods I bought, to work more.) This is keeping my overall financial asset in red, and I don't see any improvement.

I keep thinking I should stop spending my money away, but being in the middle of the end-of-the-year holiday season, it's not helping much. There has been such a wealth of must-buys that I just could not pass on, so that drained my wallet heavily. Even with that initial holiday rush of goodness in the rear view mirror, planned trip to parents' home and to New York for the holiday doesn't help much.

I guess I can blame all this to my parents for failing to teach me how to properly manage my finance. Well, I can blame them for every shit I'm in, and honestly, I have been. But I guess in the end, it's all up to me. It's my own business, and I'm responsible for it's situation--although my family's situation did have something to do with my heavily drained checkbook.

Anyways, this post has become such a rant and whine that I don't even remember why I started writing. I guess I'm trying to say, even if I'm earning much more than many and should be fairly well off, that's just not the case.

I need someone who'd help me keep my money..