Futile

I realize now that I am trying to fill the emtpiness in me with the "high" from buying needless things.

I constantly look up web-stores, trying to see who has the best deal on something I don't need right now.

I have a long list of "buy list" compiled and always look it up, update and edit it whenever I need a distraction.

I almost always think about what to buy after work; I have to make a constant effort to stop myself from driving toward CircuitCity.

No wonder I am not saving any money these days...